Queen of Drama

So I have waited all week for it to be friday. I have a had a week from hell, between work being so very slow and boring to bullshit at home. I know that I kinda started to post earlier this week about my fiance who is actually at the moment my ex fiance except we still live together.I swear I will finish the story in the next couple days. Anyways he sucks today and is bugging the shit out of me.

On the weekends my ex takes my son( who by the way doesn't belong to the current boyfriend or whatever he is) so I have the weekend to do whatever, basically. I have no homework!!!! I made half ass plans with my friend Paige to hang out and drink this weekend, because I really need to. So around 1 Adam texts me and here is the convo....

He asks what i want to do tonight. I tell him, "I thought about hanging out with Paige." He says, "thats not what he wants to do, he will find something else." I ask, "why not." He says, "that when he was on vacation(which he just got back from) he thought I said we could work on our relationship." I say "yes I did say that but what the hell does that have to do with plans tonight?" He says, "I just assumed we would hang out tonight like we always do."

Here is my problem: we never do anything on Friday nights, or most nights for that matter, except sit around the house watching t.v. Never anything I want, usually it's sports. I have no problem watching sports, but if we are supposed to be spending time together, why don't we watch something that we both want to watch.

Also, why do people assume shit. Until 1 o'clock today he never mentioned anything about us doing something tonight. So why do you get all pissed off and bent out of shape because I sort of half ass made plans. You need to learn to speak up.

Part of my problem with this is that when we are together I tend to loose myself in him. I always want to make sure he is happy and that we are doing what he wants to do. Anyone that knows me well, knows that I am not this kind of person. So I have no freaking clue why with him I do this. So the last 3 weeks that we haven't seen each other, because we were both on vacation, I seemed to get a little bit of myself back. I am a very independent person, but when I am with him I don't feel like I am, and I hate that.

Sorry to bore you to death with this very pointless post, but I needed to vent. So any advice? I want to work it out, but just not rush back into shit like it was before. I guess I just need to tell him that.